Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Me and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

a. Around midnight, I sent out a mass S.E.E. email and said "color in" twice in the same sentence. I know that doesn't seem really bad, but I felt really stupid.

b. I set my alarm for PM instead of AM, so I missed my first class (aural skills), which I should have gone to because we had a practice midterm and review.

c. We watched a really badly done video in environmental studies. Later I also found out that I got an 85 on my test, which I thought I had done much better on.

d. We were supposed to hand out apples with information about S.E.E. in red square... but there was a miscommunication and it didn't happen. No one is going to come to our event on Thursday.

e. I am am doing worse in my current math class than I've ever done in math.

f. I didn't get a chance to practice any music.

g. I am not good with elementary school kids, and I'm not very good at helping kids learn to read. Thus, I failed at literacy tutoring with first graders.

h. There's a big ol' moderation shit-storm happening on the forums I help moderate. Not really bad, just a lot going on.

i. I forgot to review a couple of CDs for KUGS. I was supposed to have them back today.

j. Glimmer of hope for open mic... but we had to wait in line to get in because of fire marshal maximum capacity issues, and then...

k. Sound issues when we went on stage. The backing tracks sounded like shit. Dead air before we started playing. Not even nervous giggles. I think I heard a piece of dust hit the floor.

In general I'm just very frustrated with life and I am very stressed out. And I keep forgetting stuff. And for some reason I just can't stay organized. BLEHHHHHHHHHHHHH *vomit*.

--Jon

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

My Life, in List Form

I am way the heck behind on this blog-writing thing. Now I remember why I was never able to keep a diary for more than a month or so.

So, what's going on with Elie's life? Man, it seems like a lot of really crappy things have happened, actually. Yeah, let's start with the bad.

Bad thing #1: I'm still in symphonic band rather than wind symphony.
Bad thing #2: I dropped out of music theory.
Bad thing #3: My history class is destroying me.
Bad thing #4: I just got an A- on my first anthropology paper. Okay, that doesn't seem so bad. But it is, because I totally missed the point of the question and my thesis was flawed from the beginning. I'm supposed to be good at anthropology because it's my major, and I know I didn't deserve an A-. I didn't answer the question remotely correctly. I should have gotten a B- at best.
Bad thing #5: I'm working so hard, but it's not paying off. Maybe it is a little bit. I mean, I'm not failing, but I spend hours on homework each night and I try to understand everything and I talk to my professors after class and during office hours, but it just doesn't matter. I feel like I was a horrible person in a past life, and now I'm making up for it.
Bad thing #6: I'm so stressed. Therefore, I'm really unhappy.
Bad thing #7: I'm so sick of sitting through lousy college classes. I'm just tired of being in college. I love being in the clubs and with the people, and I especially love volunteering, but the academics are destroying my life.

Good things that have happened to Elie:
Good thing #1: I'm still with Jon and am really thankful for our wonderful relationship.
Good thing #2: I'm on first clarinet in symphonic band and probably should have made it into wind symphony if I had seniority.
Good thing #3: I have a decent shot at graduating in 4 or 5 years rather than 5 or 6 or 7.
Good thing #4: I'll be applying to the college of education a lot earlier than expected.

There. That's my life story. Now it's homework time.

-Elie